I'm a woman... Opsss.. I'm a Muslimah

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Yes, I'm a Muslimah, I felt uneasy when people staring at me, I look down when I bumped to guy, not because I'm arrogant but I'm shy, but with female friends I declare that I want a hubby whom is a Mr Nice Guy, I wear a long hijab and a saggy dress because i felt safe in there, but what's important it's in shariah that I'd always put my best to obey, I do silly things that I didn't expect for me to do so, I push door that clearly say pull, I keep things that memorable to me even it is only a candy wrapper, I laughed harder when I try to explain why I'm laughing, I walk into rooms and forgot why I was there, I searching for things that already in my hand, I smiled alone when I thought of something funny, I listen to people who needs me to become their ears, I tried to solve problems which is not my problems, I'm pretending that I'm alright when I'm actually not, I tried to act tough even though I'm not, I hide my problems from people because I don't want to burden them with that, I hate to become trouble to others, I cry a lot more than u think I do, I'd only share happy things with people, I always bottle up my feeling and cried alone before fall asleep, I say it's nothing when it is something, I smiled to hide my sorrow, I create stupid jokes to cheer myself up, I'm easily get touched with sad story and quickly shed my tears so that no one can see I'm crying, I always want the best for my beloved one, I put my best to fit in their situation even they don't want me to, I hide my tears from them so that when they see me, they don't have to think of the problems, but just to create a happy moment together... and this is me... who love to speak my mind about something..so that i won't regret for keeping it to myself when I know it is in need to be voice out.

Sometimes, people do hurt me a lot.. u know what did I do ? I pray for strength from Allah, tell Him every single things , He is the best listener, do the Zikr, ablution, perform the Salah, read the Quran.. and eventually  my heart felt calm and at peace. I'll take people's hatred swallow it like motivation candy, forgive and forget, and move on with my life.. and that is me and this is my story...


ps : This is the last day for 2012, I hope 2013 will be a better place for me.. insyaAllah Aamiin....

Our B.I.G 2012

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Assalamualaikum..Hai guys, how’s your iman ? hope it goes well with your level of thinking and your age. Now I’m in tense condition cuz just finish my presentation on Introduction to Linguistic . Biasalah sebelum presentation dah nervous dari pagi lagi… yg feeling nervous lagi sekarang ni sebab nak stabilize balik aturan jantung and darah dalam badan. Hoho lau tenang tetibe kena heart attack pulok~! Okeh stop the rubbish start to publish!

Khamis haritu on 11-14 2012 kami ada program Bina Insan Guru B.I.G at Pantai Merang, one word for our BIG is ….. Fabulous! 

The activities, the place, the weather, the accommodation ( Iglo jer pun ) , semuanyer ok! In simple word kami ni camping la..

Before pergi sana, den dah menggelabah dah, sebabnyer, my beloved room8 dah cerita macam-macam dah perkara yang scary-scary pasal BIG dieorang. ( Dia fasa 1 aku fasa 2 ) aku yang dah biasa bercamping ni pun rasa tak sedap hati jer nak pergi sana. Macam-macam preaparation aku buat sampai membuatkan aku bercakap dengan hati aku.

Hati : masa nak camping KKP yang lagi lama pun aku tak buat preparation macam ni. 

Aku : alah…tak apalah… aku dah lama tinggal camping2 ni.. diri ini tidak semuda dan segagah dulu lagi.. ( aww..)

Dengan pemikiran yang semakin berteka-teki dalam diri ini, tibalah detik masa kami berangkat kesana.

Tiba jerk kat sana, terus aku buat scheme and scanning. Oh.. tak ada la teruk sangat tempat dia.. plus kawan aku cakap dia dah pernah camping kat tempat tu masa muda-muda dulu.. so ok la kan, ada sunbae pasal tempat tu.. kui3..

Then 1^st day biasalah.. kami pasang khemah, persiap diri, ice breaking, then mati sekejap dalam khemah menanti hari esok.

^2nd day, pagi-pagi lagi dah pressure , iaitulah, senaman pagi. Which is kawad simple2. Tau kenapa pressure ? sebab our jurulatih ( lecturer sebenarnya )  ajar yang simple-simple jer, bertapa aku teringin nak kawad gila-gila macam dulu begitu membuak-buak macam ombak kat pantai tu.. tension+ pressure dibuatnyer.

Then lepas makan dan LDK, kami dibagi briefing untuk aktiviti kembara. Best part masa letak tepung+kunyit+telur kat muka, at the beginning semua ragu-ragu nak letak, (semua tu merujuk pada aku sorang kot ? )  then lepas coach cakap ianyer boleh menghalang kulit dari sunburn, terus aku bersemangat nak tempek benda tu kat muka. Tempek tempek tempek.. kami pun start kembara….

1^st kembara merentas padang pasir olok-olok iaitu pantai, masa tu panas sangat tapi berangin la.. but still boleh sunburn, biasalah angin tepi pantai, mengandungi kandungan garam dalam udara tu, jadi cepat la hangus kulit muka eventhough kite berada ditempat yang teduh. ( teori aku sendiri and pengalaman la… )

Lepas tu part yang menarik masa kami dikehendaki memasak nasi dengan bekas kecik yang dibekalkan, aku pun tak tau nama ape, tp yang pasti kami hanya diberi 12 bijik telur ayam  ( utk 12 org ) yang belom dimasak dan beras. Pandai2 la nak hidup untuk tengah hari tu. ( bunyi macam adventurous giler. :p) air 2 botol kecik, kesimpulannya nasi tak berapa nak masak. Hoho..

Then kami pergi panjat bukit lagi… huhh penat bila lame tak bersukan berlasak ni.. then lepas merentasi perjalanan sejauh 5km atas peta, (real lagi jauh kot?) semua selamat sampai ke campsite. (saje nak bagi citer pendek)

3rd day kami ada aktiviti air, iaitulah basic swimming dengan kayaking pada petangnya. Best sgt sgt sgt.. ! untuk golongan darat yang tak pandai berenang tu boleh la belajar berenang time ni, tapi aku pun xpandai dan tak belajar pun. Harapkan life jacket untuk terapung. Kui3.

Yang akitiviti air nilah yang menyebabkan muka kami semua bertukar kaler. Dari hitam manis kepada hitam kelat , dari kulit cerah jadi kelabu, dari kelabu jadi kelabu asap.. panas kottttt~~~~~ (‘ ~ ‘melambangkan keadaan sgt panas) takpelah..itulah bukti kami ber BIG dengan riang gembira penuh bersemangat. Okeh!

10 budak hitam main tepi kolam, itik bertelur ayam mengeram. -.-

The Scientist 

tapak perhimpunan kami and tiang bendera yg melukut di tepi gantang 

the BFF couple  ;)

our campsite. ( masa balik baru bleh amik gambar sebab phone lecturer pegang XD )

The Trios (:

Rasanya tu je lah kot… kalau nak cerita satu2 macam tak abes lagi la kan.. so kita stop disini untuk kembali ke siaran tugasan Falsafah Pendidikan dan Portfolio Child Development. Sekian saja dari saya. Adios Amigos Assalamualaikum.

credit : Munirah Hashim (pitcha)

New Seasons , New Looks?

Bismillah..

This is my 1st entry in 2012, no entry about new year and what's my new hope for this seasons because kinda late for it i think. But surely my last holiday was the most profitable, beneficially holiday for me. Lol. and to my surprise, I did something new in my life that i never imagine i would did it. nothing possible and i wish to keep it secret from public.  private property :P

Leaving my beloved blog for a month and i feel like awkward feeling to write again, and all of my idea run away from me, i can't even think for my FB status like i used too before! ( FB STATUS - sounds important =,=' )

nothing more to write, I keeps feeling unsatisfied with my entry and with a little of braveness i publish this entry eventhough i know no one would ever want to give a glance at it.



fullstop. bye. bye. Wslm.

  

Atasi Rendah Diri

Lately MI selalu jer ada feeling ni. down jer ... kenapa ea..? midlife crisis ? of course tak..! baru 19 kot.. tapi..selepas ditilik dan dibelek2, punca-punca nya dah berjaya dikenal pasti dan of course takkan di-revealkan kat sini.. :P ( berlagak macam korang nak tau.. )

Actually persaan rendah diri itu bagus cuma perlu bertempat..

::: ini adalah contoh rendah diri yang bertempat :::

Wartawan : Tahniah En. Haekal ! anda berjaya mengekalkan Anugerah Engineer Paling Popular selama  8 tahun berturt-turut..!
En.Haekal : Alhamdulillah.. kejayaan ni rezeki dari Tuhan untuk saya yang serba kekurangan ini..

::: ini adalah contoh rendah diri yang tak bertempat :::

Mak : Pergi la belajar nak.. bagi sharp siket  RAM otak tu... 

Anak : tak pelah mak.. saye memang ditakdirkan untuk jadi macam ni... ( padahal diri sendiri yang malas nak belajar ) 

kalau asyik dok pikir macam ni memang teruk la.. ape pun tak boleh..~~~

Perasaan rendah diri ni berpunca dari rasa malu....

Punca Malu

1. Tak kenal diri
2. Fokus pada kehebatan orang lain
3. Gagal pamer kehebatan diri
4. Latar belakang keluarga
5. Kegagalan yang lalu'
6. Ingkar perintah Tuhan
7. Label diri yang negatif

So.. nak atasi macam mana  ???

Petua menangani malu

• Kenal diri dengan mendalam
• Doa untuk yakin diri 

Ya Allah, bukakanlah untukku pintu-pintu kebaikan, pintu-pintu keselamatan, pintu-pintu kesihatan, pintu-pintu nikmat, pintu-pintu keberkatan, pintu-pintu kekuatan, pintu-pintu cinta sejati, pintu kasih sayang, pintu-pintu rezeki, pintu-pintu ilmu, pintu-pintu keampunan dan pintu-pintu syurga. Ya Allah Yang Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang.

• Bergaul dengan orang yang positif
• Cungkil bakat terpendam
• Bentuk penampilan baru
• Baiki penampilan diri
• Kawal pemikiran dan tukar label mentaliti

Sifat rendah diri itu bagus tapi merendah-rendahkan diri itu yang tak bagus - Dato' Dr Fadzilah Kamsah

Ciri-Ciri Suami Yang Baik

Yang ni MI nak share ape yang MI belajar during PAI class..lama da belajar tapi baru nak post..^^
minat sangat topik macam nii.. hehe XD

• Bersifat takwa - Orang yang memimpin perlu menjadi lebih baik berbanding orang yang hendak dipimpin
• Kasih sayang ( Mawaddah & Rahmah ) loving
• Bergaul dengan isteri dengan cara yang paling baik - wa'a syiru
• responsible/ ra'ie / jangan dayus
• bersifat terbuka ( jangan cepat cemburu membanbi bunta ) 

Sikit jer pun point penting dia..explanation Ustaz yang panjang.. korang explain sendiri- sendiri la yer.. ^^,

A Love Letter For U

  Bismillah...

  

  I shy to tell u front-front, so I write here for u to read.

  Actually I no patience wait u to see me.. <3

  when u come we go walk-walk ea..

  then we eat-eat together-gether..

  but u must meet ma and pa 1st..got brave?

  we must care manner,

  I dont want put charcoal at family face

  I hope all things walking smoothly..

  like saying "pull hair in flour, flour not mess, hair not separate"

  you must think cook-cook before come see me...

  if you correct-correct confident, u came,

  if not it's ok..I don't want force-force..

  because u sulk when I force-force..

  when u sulk we may cut our connection..

  then I'll sad water eyes blood..

  emm.. hope we happen meet..

   if not I will small heart..

  and don't want talk-talk with u any more

  because it's like I clap one hand..

 promise me ya.. remember.... 
 "buffalo is hold by rope, man is hold by promised" 
  ok..I stop my letter here.. 
  "on table have fly,
  finished read,please reply.."
( correct or not I just tibai2.. bye2..)

  

Pompuan yang paling suka letak lagu dalam blog?

Kenapa tiba-tiba terasa nak bangkitkan isu yang tak berapa nak penting ni...? setuju tak dengan argument kat atas tu..? emm kalau nak ikutkan pengalaman MI dalam dunia blogging ni.. memang tak layak nak di ambil pakai sebabnyer.. teramat-amatlah ciput.. jangankan setahun jagung..ketiak jagung pun tak sampai lagi ( korang faham tak? err..tibai jer la.. ) MI cakap ni berdasarkan pemerhatian MI sepanjang dok blogguling, blogjumping ,blogwalking segala bagai tuh.. and..acap kali terjumpa komen macam kat bawah ni..

tak nampak? klik la bagi beso..

Kepada insan yang bernama perempuan..jangan sentap ea.. ^^ sebab tak semua blog blogger perempuan ada lagu.. blog MI pun tak pasang lagu.. personal opinion ? 

• MI rasa lagu ni macam gangguan untuk readers macam MI ni yang tak boleh membaca bila ada dengar lagu... ( mula la nak melalak )
• Lagi.. MI percaya mostly bloggers akan bukak banyak tabs sekaligus bila nak blogwalking, so kalau blog si polan ni dah ada lagu..si polan ni pun pasang lagu jugak yang mane satu nak dengar? tak ker pening wiring sistem dalam telinga.. cukup bulan pekak jadinyer.. ( drastik2...)
• Nak lagi..? ok...MI beranggapan bahawa kalau reader nak dengar lagu dia boleh pasang sendiri..(dalam lappy takkan tak lagu kowt..) so tak perlu nak rajin-rajin nak bagi khidmat lagu percuma.
• MI dapat tau yang pasang lagu ni menambahkan berat blog kita... bila dah berat lambat la loading.. kalau blog  tu tak ada lagu pun dah berat..ada lagu? obesiti la jawabnyer... 
• Tambah ada yang pasang lagu automatically sampai maximum volume.. tak ker terkezut sapa2 yang dengar.. tiba-tiba jer memecah gegendang telinga.. so agak irritating... =)  

Setakat itu lah personal opinion MI.. (macam dah panjang sangat jer).. Tapi advantages pasang lagu pun ada jer..cuma MI tak nak ulas panjang lebar kat sini...bagi yang pasang lagu tu.. tak kira anda laki ker.. pompuan ker.. letak la button play and stop tu ea.. sebab ada blog yang MI pergi tak boleh tutup lagu nyer sebab hidden button.. tak pun kotak music dia memang tak ada button play and pause.. ( automatic).. if case like that..terpaksa la navigate ke blog lain.. tak sempat nak baca entri manyak-manyak..T_T ..lugi ooo..

p/s: Blogger laki pun ada jer yang pasang lagu cuma pompuan lagi manyak.kot?..hee~ bagi la pendapat korang kat ruang komen ea..yang ni cuma pendapat MI sebagai blogger hingusan dalam dunia blogging ni.. setakat ni jer la ea hayat entri ni....no hard feeling k.. entri sembang kosong jer ni.. lalalala... adiozz..Wslm...

The Story Of A Blind Girl..

I still remember that very time..when he ask me " will u ever love me if I blind? "
all of sudden I can't utter even a word... my tears falls down the cheek... I have no idea what his intention by asking me that question... I take a long paused before replied... then I said... if you were made for me, no matter in what situation or condition that we may face, I'll always be by ur sight.. by ur side... my answer were only like that, cuz I cannot stand crying... honestly, I almost forget about that situation ever happen in my life... until I accidentally read this story.. "the story of a blind girl" really touched me that caused me post this entry despite of studying for my MOCK exam tomorrow.. hurgh.. feeling hard to be control.. ok now I leave u with the story that caught my sorrow in this lonely midnight.

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she’s blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He’s always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.


One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, “now that you can see the world, will you marry me?” The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. “Just take care of my eyes dear.”


my dear.. in case u  read this entry.. do remember that I never ever want what happen in this story, repeat to ours'.. my best buddy.. 143.. =) Adios... Wslm.